today i learn a lesson, which is NEVER EVER ask from other people. all i have and must do now is to prove myself right, and others wrong. i will now save up my OWN money to buy MYSELF a laptop, a laptop which i like and i need, not even depending on my parent cus apparently they just think i am WANTING things instead of needing them. so well, its just me me me and ME. people say, siblings are there to help you when in need. PUI! nonsense la, mine is just one CB, which instead of helping, tear me down. i just wanted to borrow her laptop and play games only, so she like one CB, acting like she VERY BIG, dont want lend me, ignore me when i ask her SOOO nicely, complain to my mum saying that i am annoying. ok la, fine la, since you dont wanna borrow me, then FUCK YOU LA! i ask till like i am a beggar and she just fcking dont care! FUCK YOU LA! anyway just JIAYOU BENJAMIN! I KNOW YOU CAN SAVE AND BUY YOUR OWN!

WOW!! it has really been a LONG LONG time that i had last posted here. read all my previous post and really feel very heart warming and all, it mentioned the times we went out as a group, what we did and so on. but now looking at ourselves, everyone is so busy and some of us don't even have the time to catch up. was kinda sad though, but oh well, this is life.... but i am gonna meet some of them IF possible la. hahas, i think this is a really nice place for me to say out my thoughts and for me to rant, people who know this blog think its dead, and for people who don't know of this blog, don't even know i have a blog la.. well, Blog i miss you. thus i am gonna update often. if possible.. :) alright, think this is it. :)